{There Are Many Things that Can Change A Life}

Tuesday, August 14, 2018

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Two weeks ago I almost withdrew from nursing school. In fact, I sold back my books, cancelled my private loan for financial aid, and told my close friends and family that I wouldn’t be returning to my ABSN program in the fall. Everyone was so supportive, but I continued to wrestle with this decision a hundred times over. I couldn’t deny that I was physically and mentally fatigued, not to mention missed time with Tim and Bravey beyond words.

As I was getting ready to tell my classmates about my decision to withdraw, I received an email from a 96 year old great grandma. Her name was Shirley and she said she had asked her nurse aid to help type me a message. She mentioned she was in a hospice care facility in NY and had outlived all of her children, family, and friends. When her doctors had given her three days to live her nurse asked her how she wanted to spend her final days. Shirley said “in gratitude.” So her nurse showed her our blog and read her my gratitude posts for hours. She said it made her happy and that she just wanted to send a message to say “thank you” before she died.

It was by far one of the most powerful emails I’ve ever received, as well as one of the hardest. I sat there afterwards weeping knowing God was using Shirley’s words and story to remind me not to lose hope of one day becoming a nurse and being able to care for the physically and emotionally broken. I share this story with you (not only because most of you know how I feel about letters) but because I want to tell you that you’re not alone or crazy for wanting to jump ship when things get hard. Hang in there. Don’t give up on your dreams. Persevere and stay curious, and may we all spend our days like Shirley living from a place of gratitude. Here’s to gratitude and how it turns everything into enough. Here’s also to fall and to another semester of growth.

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